The past couple of weeks, I’ve felt pretty good about my progress writing. I have several blog drafts I worked on and other projects offline I’ve been working on. I really started feeling like I could do this, you know get ahead and just basically get somewhere. There are so many things I want to do. Things I’ve been trying to do. Goals I’d like to accomplish. Stories I’d like to write. Just in general moving forward. I thought I’d gotten past the excuses and bullshit that I let get in my way.
Then today I sat down, very motivated to finish writing and editing some of the drafts. Before starting I ended up going onto Youtube, big mistake. I wasted an hour watching a video. Okay that’s fine I can recover, it’s early I still have all day. So I finish up the video, move over to WordPress and try to work on something. I ended up trashing the whole draft. The topic, the approach, everything seemed right. It seemed like exactly the kind of thing I should be writing and posting about. Nothing I typed seemed right though. I thought maybe I’ll switch over to something else. Just looked at them and felt absolutely no inclination to work on them. Again a great idea until I actually start to execute. I feel stuck. Now I just don’t want to do anything.
Thought maybe writing this might make me feel better. It hasn’t. But hey I’m posting something. (That is if I actually go through with posting this.)